My Intention on Substack
Writing to empower creatives – actors, writers, filmmakers, and anyone drawn to making meaningful work. Through essays, stories, and behind-the-scenes insights.
The complexity of life
Im amazed by the complexity of life. At the age of 34 I still haven’t found a single place that feels like home. On the other hand I cant’t say Im disappointed with my life either.
I've reached many of my goals, like becoming an actor and traveling the world.
Still, I have a deep sense of emptiness that’s been with me for my entire adult life.
Life seems more and more like a wet canvas to me. As soon as I think Ive managed to look clearly at an aspect of life, believing I have come to an understanding.
The frame changes and evolves into something else and I lose my balance again.
Reflection is the solution
At this point in life, I need a space for honest reflection. A place where I can put my words onto paper without the goal of earning money or promoting myself as an actor or entrepreneur. Like I do with my journal in the back of my drawer.
I love self-improvement and online business strategies that seem to flood all over the internet these days. Im a big consumer of that type of content myself. But I miss the sort of connection I get from going deep into the personal experiences of being human, and reflecting upon them with others.
Deep felt reflections are what really create unique ideas and stories that can create meaningful connections.
Sharing without solving
I meet a lot of people with solutions.
People who readily share advice on how to find the perfect partner if you so much as hint on having difficulties navigating the intricate web of dating apps. Or how to treat your parents who are getting older. Honestly - I’m one of the advice givers.
On a daily basis I hear myself coming up with new advice to people around me, and each time I think to myself: “Those words are coming from your mouth now, but they are not your thoughts!”
What are my thoughts?
I don’t know, but they sure as hell are not a collection of pre-written self-development quotes my brain has stored, ready to smash out in order to project my own self-image upon others.
Storytelling from inside
What comes up inside me, on a deeper level, is when I hear a friend’s honest reflection. Are more subtle responses whispering inside me like a distant voice of intuition, through plain and simple feelings of empathy that could be expressed as; I hear you brother. Or, thank you for sharing that sister.
So, to be specific, I hope to share my ongoing life experiment as a fragile and somewhat confused artist and human being. In an honest and uncensored way, so I can become a better storyteller and human being.
Because storytelling for me is
I hope to learn something about myself along the way. I guess that’s why we are all here on earth in the end: to learn, change, and evolve.
Will you stay with me for a while? At least for a cup of coffee!
